I wish I tried harder to save relationships that were so important to me in the past.  If I could love with no boundaries and be unshaken by even the coldest act of apathy, I would be free of 75% of my regrets today.  I am captive to my own pride.  I’ve never been one to wait around for opportunities, but I’ve waited ages for relationships to revolve in my direction.  Of course it’s about me; whatever is easiest for me, whoever is nicest to me.  I’ll make an effort if it’s convenient for me.  As bold as this statement is, I truly want to salvage all my past relationships that I’ve let fall to the wayside.  I am absolutely uncomfortable being the first one to reach out…especially since we’ve both established the same level of apathy.  But I don’t think it’s about me anymore, or how uncomfortable I am to be the first.  We love because we were first loved.  We love because we know what it feels like to be unloved.

A little lost, a little confused, and little somewhere in between…

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